I can never place the correct words in my head when it comes to all the new changes in my life, because there have been drastic readjustments making my life even better than before. You really need to develop some skill of encouragement to be able to do the kind of thing I did to get where I am right now in California. I remember waking up one day in ninth grade wondering what I was going to do with my life to make it worth living for. I figured the perfect way to proceed with my dreams I’d have to become some sort of entertainer to be famous. I wanted people to want me to be in this world, because I always thought about my future and wondered who would show up at my funeral when that happens. So I put myself out there on a webcam site that was introduced to me by a dear friend that I became dear friends with. If it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t have been on cam at the time my present agent to find me and fly me out to California to pursue a dream.
I grew up a little rougher than most children probably grew up. They became used to fancy clothes, food, and vehicles all because of their rich families. I never had that growing up since I had no rich relative to pass a large fortune onto me, instead at a young age I had to become my own adult and support myself while I had no guidance from any of my family members. Bad influences were brought upon me causing me to have sex at a young age and abuse my body in the way of in taking alcohol and marijuana as well as physically abusing my body with sex. So I had a different life style and I was never home and I abandoned my education on a regular basis by missing school saying I was sick and wasn’t feeling well enough for school. Missing school so much caused me to go out more at night and party with the usual crowd I hung out with, which caused me to have a lot of sex in my personal life and causing me to be a naughty girl. I knew I wanted to have a job that I truly enjoyed, but I was preparing myself to get this big education to become this very important business woman since my dad had that kind of lifestyle he wanted me to have the same one. I disagreed eventually and realized that the best way for me to gain a lot of respect and fans was to expose my body out there and the adult entertainment industry was the best choice for me so I truly thank my agent for getting me started in the business. I have lost so much in my life for this new career choice of mine such as losing my education and having to make it up in the future, my father disowning me, and having real world problems and making decisions that could change your entire life. This life is intense and it’s not as easy as everyone else thinks that it is.
I was a naughty girl and not to mention that is the possible reason for my liking rougher sex. I like to be dominated in a way that is pleasurable, but intense. So my past has influenced my sex life more than the way it ever had before in my personal life, so getting into the industry was the best thing I have ever done. I have had so much amazing sex that has led multiple orgasms causing any stress in my body to disappear. Sex is such a huge relief to me now and I am so happy that I can live a life like this. I used to deny sex to the guys I messed around with, because I didn’t feel many good sensual effects from it. I however grew very fond of the Hitachi Magic Wand Massager and I’ve been using it nonstop for the last 2 years. Now that we are introduced more into the kind of sex and pleasures that I like to receive, why not benefit my fans with the luxury of knowing everything that I am into as of right now. I haven’t shown my fans much of my feet, and I do apologize about that but I love to tease all the fans out there that have feet fetishes. I am not a huge fan of other people’s feet unless it’s a very girly soft looking foot ha-ha, but I do enjoy other people that like to look at my feet. I also have a nipple pinching fetish meaning I love my nipples pulled on. I am grown to learn about my body more and more each day since in my personal life before this point in time, I used to never play with myself because I only liked clit vibration from my Hitachi. I noticed that my nipples aren’t really sensitive and I feel no pleasure unless they are tugged on pretty hard. I believe I can handle bondage since I used a large amount of vibration on my clit throughout the years I can handle high powered toys and big dick as well as heat such as candle wax and nipple clamping.
My fantasy one day is to be completely tied up and someone takes their way with me by using high powered toys on me and not allowing me to get away from the pleasure because I’d be completely tied down. Another thing about my sex life is the idea of anal being in my head more often than usual. It feels amazing when I am masturbating with my finger in my butt and I experienced this for the first time ever during my scene in Arizona for FTVGIRLS.com, but unfortunately I have only been able to handle one penis in up until now and I learned that I enjoy it. Something that many people don’t know about me either is the fact that I like to be manhandled a little bit even though you could assume that from the bondage fantasy since I like to be tied up so the idea is something that is predictable. I like my hair to be pulled which I know many guys and girls love doing that for a sense of control with the occasional neck choking too for me is pretty enjoyable to do in a smart way that doesn’t choke me or give me the inability to breath. Learning a little more about my sex life before the industry, I must say it was pretty boring since I didn’t like to be sloppy to where we had to clean anything up. The more I had sex each time I learned more and I got better at doing things sloppier and becoming more lenient on doing something different. I never gave my boyfriend’s or anything really sloppy blow jobs, because a lot of the times we were at my house doing this kind of stuff since my mother was never home and didn’t care what I did and who I did it with. So I never wanted to deal with any of the messes that kind of oral and sex did in the end. I also wasn’t into doing a lot of different positions, but it wasn’t until the last year or so I learned I like to do doggy style a lot since my booty is so big and it’s usually the favorite for the guy as well. My apologizes for all the rambling, but I am putting myself out there as an open book and I feel if I am going to write a blog weekly than there is no reason not to be open about all of my thoughts and opinions so I truly hope this is helping out all my fans in getting to know me better.
I decided to expose myself in a way that would reach out to all my fans and let you all know personally what I like and how I like it. It means so damn much to me that you all follow me on twitter and all my other social media websites and support me doing this type of work. It amazes me each and every day how much love I see on my twitter every morning when I wake up to the moment I go to bed. I also have been pretty quiet and sensitive about my love for woman now. I can’t sit here and say “I never saw myself liking girls” when I have actually been saying I love being with girls and I absolutely enjoy eating them out. I have been watching porn sites since I was fifteen years old and I typically went to the lesbian category since I knew that girls knew what they were doing and I also understood that eating out was the main action of a lesbian video. Watching that category did something to me that any other category didn’t do to me. So I had visions in my head like little fantasies and thought what it was like to be down there and lick a girl’s pussy and her doing the same thing for me. Then one day I tried it for a shoot and it was very light and sensual play so I didn’t experience it too much, until I did it once in my personal life and I couldn’t stop! I loved it so much and I loved that it didn’t cause my mouth to get sore because for some reason I had learned the perfect sucking motion. It gives me so much joy to see other people happy and enjoying what I am doing to them or even watching someone doing something to someone else and I am just sitting there watching. I also honestly love sitting there and being a little pervert and everyone else can also find me sitting there on set while everyone is getting everything arranged I am playing with my vagina watching everyone work. I am definitely a unique girl, but I was made for this industry.
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